It was clear,
coming to rest
on my long awaited
family holiday,
my body was done..
No resistance
no resilience
no reserves left.

Yet still another month
and a half
of shedding tasks
roles and
jobs
that took more
and still more away
than I had left to give,

until it all came to
a truly, undeniably,
incontrovertibly,
crashing halt
and my brain slammed
into the in-side of my
skull.

Yet still, like a
runaway train
having hurtled down a ravine,
rumbling on
through sheer momentum,
on its recent track
the engine still going,
although slowly puttering out,

until finally, finally
coming to a stop
a resting place,
long enough
for the necessary message
to come through:
the ONLY thing that
“bodily-felt-sense” really
takes the pressure off,
to give the shaken engine
nourishment and
space to heal,
is to deeply rest,
between ALL,
reduced
measured and
gentle only,
daily activities
for the foreseeable
future

25/12/2024
17/1/2025